Dealing with Panic Attacks and Anxiety

This is going to be a different blog post to what you're used to, but I hope that this will help at least one person because anxiety is one of the most horrible psychological feelings you can go through. If you're kind enough to read my blog whenever I create a new post, you know me as the teenage alcoholic going through a late-teen crisis when it comes to love and Zayn Malik obsession. But all my life I've suffered with mild anxiety and over the past couple weeks, I've been having real bad panic attacks and feel like I'd share with you how I cope with it.

A lot of people assume that if you're confident or happy for the majority of the time you're with that person, that you're confident and happy 100% of the time, have no self esteem issues and are pretty much stable. But there are a lot of dark, stormy clouds in the metaphorical summer of the mind. Anxiety and panic attacks are terrifying. Talking about them is terrifying. Blogging about this makes me feel uber uncomfortable because thinking about panic attacks makes me, well, panic.

I'm not exactly sure what triggered my anxiety, and I can't remember my first panic attack. But recently, I've had panic attacks that last for hours in little spurts. I feel alone during this time, even if I have friends around me supporting me. I feel alone and scared. You get really warm and start sweating like a menopausal bitch, but at the same time you can feel coldness. It's very unpleasant and once they start, all sorts of emotions and feelings like adrenaline, illness and unhappiness all come at once. I wouldn't even wish for Spencer from Made in Chelsea to have a panic attack (but I would punch him in the face).

Panic attacks feel like they are cock blocking your life. You want to do things, but are scared to do them just in case you have a panic attack. If you've had a panic attack in a certain place, you're more likely to have a panic attack in a similar situation. So you need to try and break the mold. Go to these places with people that love you and hold their hand. If it's a nightclub, go to a nightclub sober with friends until you're comfortable enough to get shitfaced and not have a panic attack. Personally, for me I used to have them in primary school all the time, or just randomly when I go to sleep.

The main thing you need to do if you're having a panic attack is contact someone. If you're with a friend, tell them immediately. If you're not, go to get your phone and ring someone. A familiar voice or face can really help you keep calm. But the person with you has to stay calm also. They should never be forceful or make assumptions about your needs. The person just needs to ask every now and again if you're feeling okay. If you're with someone having a panic attack, be calm, be supportive and reassuring.

Panic Attacks will not ruin your life if you don't make them. You can let them be a huge part of your life or you can do something about it. If you need help and suffer with really bad panic attacks, make sure you go and see a doctor, even if you're not sure. There are drugs that can help you and even though it is classed as a 'mental illness', it does not make you abnormal or anything of the sort. Panic attacks are actually a lot more common than people think and there are a lot of people that have severe anxiety. There are therapy groups or personal therapy that can make a huge difference in helping you cope with anxiety. Exercise isn't really a word in my vocabulary, but sometimes if I feel a bit panic-y then I go for a jog around the block. Get something to take your mind off things. Most importantly, do not do this alone. Do not lock yourself in your room and stay away from things that you think may trigger a panic attack. Surround yourself with lovely people and talk to them about it. They WILL be a lot more understanding than you think they will.

This blog post was really hard for me to post and I am very sorry for not being up-to-date on my blogging. It's been a hard couple of weeks but I promise to be blogging about fashion and crotches on a more than weekly basis very soon. If this helps even one person I will not regret posting this as it's been a very hard hour and a half behind this computer screen. If you go through some of the things I've talked about and don't know who to talk to, please don't hesitate to ask me something on my Tumblr or direct message me on my Twitter. In the words of Micheal Jackson, you are not alone.

FASHION REVIEW: MTV Movie Awards.

We live in a world where the biggest music television network have their own award ceremony devoted to cinema. So naturally, I'm going to review the fashion antics from Sunday's show.

Selena Gomez looking lovely in Julien Macdonald. She looks so pretty. Ugh, if I was straight this would go straight into my wank bank (is that what the straight youth say?).

Emma Watson in Maxime Simoëns (I think). When you don't have tits, you don't want such a large cleavage gap. Pretty dress though.

SUPER CASUAL. I'd still do him. (It's Eddie Redmayne if you're not gay/a girl)

Oh. My. God. (It's Ke$ha if you don't like techno yodeling)

Kim Kardashian proving she does not look nice pregnant. Again.

Kylie in Paco Rabanne. Ugh I love her, but her belly button looks freakishly high up from where it should be.

My spirit animal, Rebel Wilson wearing an Adidas tracksuit. Can I be friends with you please?

Thoughts on Thatcher

Former British PM Margaret Thatcher passed away yesterday after a stroke. I have always had an adoration for this woman as well as a gut hate. She brought hope and aspiration to many girls and women, who were told to look after the home and make sure the paper was on the desk, that dreams can come true. You can be the Prime Minister. On the other hand, she was seen as unfair to the poor and industrial industries of the UK, she got rid of child benefits, and even though I think she dealt with situations the wrong way by doing too much too fast. What she did had to happen eventually, and we can see with the current government that her methods are being repeated to help the economy, for example, the bedroom tax. Thatcherism may not be popular, but some people see it as an affective way to sort things out.

Coming from an industrial town myself, I understand why people are happy about her death. Everyone is proud of where they come from and an industry can represent a community. But I don't think that her death should be celebrated. This woman shaped our country and without Thatcher, I believe gender roles would of taken a whole lot longer to break. Men would be men, and women would be women. Do we want all me to dominate the industrial and business industries and women to stay at home. Even though she wasn't really a feminist, she did a whole lot for women. She set the bar for doing whatever the fuck you want because that's what you want to fucking do.

Even though a lot of people haven't forgiven Thatcher and I completely understand why. Yesterday was a sad day for Britain. We lost our first and only female Prime Minister. One in five MP's are female, which too me and a lot of people is ridiculously low, and a whole lot of them think Margaret Thatcher set the bar for females in politics.

I'm very sorry for getting all serious on your asses but I promise I'll start talking about One Direction's crotches very soon.